Barney's Journey

been back for a long time le

2007-08-04T10:35:00.000-07:00

something i only realised today was a little action developed over the weeks since i am back is tat i have been rubbing my tummy very often.... and tat my 4 kingdoms hav merged into a united nations liao... a confirmation and a result of the potatoing since i am back in singapore...

今天。。

2007-05-26T08:37:00.000-07:00

刚刚从小组时间结束后.. 走回学校宿舍取了自行车，准备为了今晚的夜宵而奔波。在来来回回的道路上不知行了多少回，这条路已成为这几周我几乎每晚都会走一趟。为了我喜欢的羊肉串，最近我每晚都会去光顾离我家不远的烤羊肉串店。这一次却与往常不一样，在半路上我看到对面发生了一些状况，好象是发生了一起小车祸，看起来也好象没人受伤，可能只是车受损罢了。但是真正抓住我的注意力的是他们为了可能毫不起眼的事情而大打出手，当中也有一些“多事”的旁观者也参与。其中印象最深刻的是就在我后面处于对面的车道的一个旁观者，竟然不顾危险跑过马路到对面事发地点去KAYPOH.... 让我觉得很好笑，本来可以很快且简单的解决一件事结果因为多出了这么多的“多事人”反而更难和平的解决一件事... 真的是很好气又好笑。

2007-05-14T23:01:00.000-07:00

i have seen the goal... the direction was given .. i jus need to walk towards it .. no matter how hard... how long.... however slow i maybe walking.. but at least i am still walking towards it.. thru this entire thing, the lessons that i have learned..i dun want to forget.. its too impt for me to forget and tat Daddy has to teach me again...

its time to get my life reorganised again le..... ....

Ready for bigger things...

2007-05-07T09:31:00.000-07:00

i would dare say to come to the stage i am in now isnt easy at all.. though its inevitable, cos there isn't any better way out( there might have been another possible solution though.. but might not have been the best solution) .. so standing where i am now and looking back at the past 3 weeks or so... or more.. i am grateful.. and thankful, cos i know at every step of the way. He was with me.. and He never left me to deal with this alone.. at every step, there are ppl to talk to me, encourage me, give me a hand, or to lend me a shoulder, or a ear perhaps to hear all my grumblings... i really thank u guys for being there for me, some of u who bear the heat of all my grumbles and anger even at times.. it has really been hard on u guys..

its a major lesson in life.. one that i dun regret doing all that i have done.. one tat if given a choice whether to go thru it again i will definately go thru it.. though very much painful.. and lots of emotions and values.. thinkings.. are being shaken.. but thru it i learned alot of life lessons... its all part of a maturity process like wat one of my frens said.. its time to grow up le..

now.. after all's been said and done.. at the end of the day.. the heart of the matter.. now.. is 2 things.. to focus on wat i am here to do(study) .... and to focus on my on spiritual growth..
it doesnt mean being able to say or even write it out down here means i have placed it behind me.. its a constant ongoing battle.. the battle for my heart.. to come alive.. The glory of God is a man fully alive..

not But I.. its But God... =)

2007-05-04T07:59:00.000-07:00

had a great time with aunty lilian and aunty licheng.. and thru the course of these few days.. i have seen for myself, they can really really shop sia.... and really thank God for the "training" i have with the NUS batch of students.. that i can shop with them the whole day.. carry their stuff at the end of the day when they are tired.. i still can go on.. muahahahahahahaha.... well still its a tiring but enjoyable thing.. to enjoy their company.. hear from them .. and learn from them... thru the days that they were here.. alot of the things i was going thru came to a closure.. that major thing tat i was going thru.. was dealt with and now i am ready for bigger things ahead.. there are more things ahead tat i should focus on... more impt things.. like wat huaken said.. its a shaking process ... and when everything else have been shaken.. then wat is left is really the impt things in life and wat God wants me to focus on.. =)

at the end of the day.. that God will reign unchallenged in my heart..

my heart is still to bless ... =)

2007-04-22T20:13:00.000-07:00

2007-04-19T08:14:00.000-07:00

心情渐渐平静下来了。。。　虽然还不是很清楚将来的事情，也不知道接下来要做的事。不过我很清楚的是，祂牵着我的手，祂也掌管明天。没有一件所发生的事，祂不知道的。一切将来的事，已在祂的手中。。。。　我将走一步，算一步，所走的每一步祂都会带领。。。。　

Thinking and thinking... carry on thinking..

2007-04-17T10:10:00.000-07:00

thinking abit as i was cycling to qinghua today... i think i understand the lesson i was supposed to learn or go thru le.. it is not so much of "crucifying" the feelings and emotions.. but more of "crucifying" myself.. my past to be exact... that my past should be the one that is "crucified" and i admit.. the process was indeed tough.. and difficult.. hurting definately ... someone once said.. that when emotional pain reaches a certain degree.. u can feel it even in the physical... and i totally know wat it means by tat ....

the dying process was really painful i would say.. even now i am still feeling the pain sometimes.. but i know and i am sure .. now that the heart has more or less calmed down.. and i look back .. i realised tat that is very crucial.. i mean that God knows tat it is going to totally devastate me.. and yet out of His great love for me.. He allowed it to happen.. so tat in the midst of dying... i learned to trust Him.. and depend on Him... and even so .. allow Him to change me, my mindsets, my habits ..... .... ..... Because He loved me so much... He is willing to allow a thing of such a magnitude to happen to me.. and now looking back.. I really thank Him for that.. Love is really about doing what is good for the other person... and not what the other person thinks is good... and because of what has happened.. my past being crucified... and thru all the chats i have with ppl ard me.. reading the bible and other books.. and sometimes God even.. speaking to me .. i have come to a point .. today, the one week anniversary of my "death" i can say.. God has "revived" me from it.. and gave me a new heart, a heart and a mind tat looks into the future.. and no longer looks into the past as i always do... before... from one who loves the past.. to now one who dares to look into the future... the challenges ahead..

i am on the road of recovering to my healthy state.. a long way though.. however tough ahead .. i am a little more better than yesterday.. and i know tat with each day, i begin to think of more things .. things tat i never thought of before.. things about my life.. my future.. what i wanna do .. where i wanna go... its no longer about the past le... yongxian is now a changed man..( at the very least, my heart is changed.... )

有时候我在想，真的很难，太难了，若是成功，那真的是上帝的奇妙作为。。。　

2007-04-16T08:01:00.000-07:00

its been a long 2 weeks.. dunno wat to say now.. the story is too long to put it up on blog le... so i decided to write it as a story.. and when its completed .. then post it.. =)

2007-04-03T20:15:00.000-07:00

at this current stage.. i would say thanks to all those who have been speaking to me.. and also enduring my nonsense all these while.. although all hasn't come to an end yet.. but it might as well have been .. once again i crumbled and once again i laid myself on the altar and say if anyone needs to be placed on the altar so tat God can reign unchallenged in my heart.. let it be me... it has nothing to do with anyone else.. but its me and me alone. we as the guys we need to rise up.. we need to be the leaders as the head of the household..

it still hurts... no doubt.. every morning i wake to hope that it was a dream.. but it wasnt.. ... ... there is still chance everybody say.. but well.. all i can say is that this is a test.. a test of my very own heart to know if i really would go for it despite the opposition... the something that is fierce in my heart, that is willing to pursue .. jus like how i pursue God..

its been a few days...

2007-04-01T20:20:00.000-07:00

its long i would say .. going thru the things i am going thru now, its a lot of deep stuffs that i learned, from the sunday sermon, then from the sharing with her.. it has really reminded me of the truths that i already know .. but always found it hard to live it out..

i guess if there is anything different between us and them, it must have been God, that God was guiding us, me at least i'm sure.. that with God its more than enuff..

2007-03-29T08:42:00.000-07:00

to be like the apostle paul.... everything i count it a lost to the surpassing goodness of knowing Jesus Christ my Lord...

back from luo yang and xi-an

2007-03-28T08:55:00.000-07:00

had an exciting yet tiring trip to luoyang and xi-an.. din really get to sleep much thru the few days i was there.. it would have ben more interesting if i have more time to spend there... went to many places like the long-men grottoes... terra-cottas...blah blah blah... and there at these places i tot alot.. i begin to look at the thing in Daddy's spectacles.. to seek what He really thinks of this situation, to know His will for me...

jus had a unexpected long chat with my dad, it was his birthday today, even so.. its still unusual or should i say not common for such a long chat to take place.. on this topic.. haha.. how interesting.. cos i guess not many young ppl will share with their parents things that they would rather share with their frens ... there is alot of wisdom thru the words he said.. and it really openned me to a bigger view of things...

if this is really serious.. i need to observe it more, i need to be sure, absolutely sure, and not jus anyhow go with the flow of emotions or with the events ... i need the wisdom to know how to deal with the many differences that lies ahead.... make me sensitive to ur prompting Daddy....

Worth.Waiting.For

hmm....

2007-03-22T22:24:00.000-07:00

taking time off to think deeper... embarking on a holiday to Luo yang and Xi-an with the whole gang of singaporean exchange students.. wanna take this time to relax and also seek Daddy on some issues.. its time to settle down and really start focusing on my work here...

some ppl has been telling me that they dun really understand the recent blogs i've pasted.. well, i was going thru a period of balancing myself between 2 camps of thoughts.. ever since i read the book Charismatic Chaos by John F Macarthur.. i realised that i can no longer believe wat the authors write.. no matter how popular their books are.. unless its doubled checked with Daddy's word... otherwise i rather not read it.. its all back to His word tat really counts...

i am not as good as him when it comes to chinese.. he can do so much if he was to be doing wat i am doing now.. but precisely because i am not as good as him.. and many a times when i study i even struggle despite my strong background in the language. thats why i need Daddy all the more. Thats when He can use me to do the things that no one else might be able to do... its a total dependence on Him....

2007-03-22T06:34:00.000-07:00

its not to be either one side or the other.. but a balance between the both... we need the Word and the HS to go hand in hand...

learning to be discerning.. =)

2007-03-21T08:13:00.000-07:00

i believe that in the midst of all these.. i need the discernment to know what is right and what is wrong.. what is really from God and what is from men.. i can no longer follow blindly... :)

jus one chat... and the entire world is being shaken...

2007-03-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

hmm....how am i going to deal with this.. what i have heard and what i read. the things tat i have found on the net .. makes me really wonder.. hmm.. makes me wonder if they are the truth.. its a big shaking .. i am in desperate need of the truth.. nothing but the truth. The real truth in its most original sense.. word for word... nothing else. ... having talked to her today.. i have learned 2 things.. one about spiritual sharing.. the other is about this prosperity church thingy and about the word faith thingy... yet i need to seek after the God and know for myself .. what is really right and wat isnt. .... .... HELP !!!

You are more than enough for me ...

2007-03-18T02:16:00.001-07:00

been reminding myself..

2007-03-15T23:15:00.000-07:00

i believe its really good once in a while to look back at what has happened. look through the journals or something.. reflect on what has happened.. the various milestones that i have crossed... because the pace of the society is going so fast that many a times we may have forgotten what was our original calling. Forget what i came here to do. By Daddy's grace that i am here in China studying... and my focus should be on studying.. and not anything else..
of cos its good that this semester i have frens down here.. and its definately good to enjoy their company.. but that will still not change what i am here to do... which is to study..

of different type of character and of different background.. so much about it is different .. i guess it is really not meant to be.... -_-

wierd dream...

2007-03-12T21:18:00.000-07:00

in my dream, i saw a door that looks old... on it. was a picture, but it wasnt the picture tat caught me, it was the words on the picture tat caught my attention.. " because I dun ask... " and i can immediately felt the rest of the words.. "thats why.... ... " hmm.. how odd .. i hope Daddy is not telling me to break the status quo now.. either its a reflection of what i have been thinkin in the day .. or its really Daddy sayin something to me .. although yes i believe that in this thing once in a while some thing fierce is needed.. but.. now ? haiz... help me trust in Your timing.. i have laid the "issac" at the altar le .. my hands are on the knife.. and because i know that You are a good Daddy, and You have great plans for me... i am willing to plunge it down ... ... for nothing should ever take the place of You in my life.. however great the desire it is to do my will, not my will but Yours be done.. ... ..

yongxian 13/03/07 1228 pm
it used to be 2 out of 3 votes.. and now the last vote has jus been added in...
from waiting for nothing to waiting for something.. back to waiting for nothing...
i dunno wats going on.. but i am willing to trust...

working it thru...

2007-03-12T08:05:00.000-07:00

yea.. indeed working it thru, cos i believe that Daddy is more than enuff for me. Compared to Him, nothing else matters.. its an issac that i have to let go off.. my dreams and my desires.. all i submit into His hands... He alone will suffice... i am setting my heart into finishing this well...

its too hard.... ... unless You help me or i am bound to fail.. help me remember that there is nothing in this world that You and i together cannot achieve.. help me trust in Your timing...

been thinkin abt my trip here.. looking back.. among my batch of students tat went overseas... i am the only one who came on a FMS，its a very hard for someone to come all the way here.. without a scholarship.. all by himself.. someone who has studied sciences all his life.. and all of a sudden turned to literature and lit in chinese somemore... and the doors that opened along the way.. i can only say.. Only Daddy is capable of doing it.. and when no one really pays much attention to this place... i came, now that i am here.. then more and more starting to pay attention to this place.. how interesting it is to be among the pioneers....

Thank You Daddy for You made all these possible..

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/262754/1/.html

something i learned... hmm...

2007-03-11T04:41:00.000-07:00

Learning the disciplines of longing, loneliness, uncertainty, hope, trust, and unconditional commitment to Christ - A commitment which required that,regardless of what passion we might feel, WE MUST BE PURE.

Elisabeth Elliot

Barney

jus needed to finish it well... thats enuff liao..

2007-03-10T06:15:00.000-08:00

花了很多时间在想...我终于明白了，我只需要好好的完成这件事就够了，真的不需要想太多。This test tat lies before me, i only need to finish it well.. its going to be another milestone for me... what ever happens after this test... is another journey, andt for the time being, i declare that nothing is going to happen... The first thing to do, is still nothing... and all that, that is going within ... everything .. i lay it down right now.. and this will be where it lies.. till the day,the time( if ever ) Daddy wants to revive it, if not there it shall lie... and this will serve as a reminder...
dated 11-03-07 0116 am
Barnabas

am i ready to meet Him...

2007-03-08T07:54:00.000-08:00

today as i was cycling and topo-ing to my frens university i got the message that a good fren of mine has passed away due to a accident, she has been a good fren and during the days when i am applying for BNU, she has helped me alot.. thus tat news hit me quite hard... that left me thinkin... that we can be taken back jus like tat... and are we prepared to meet Him.. ? how has my life been so far ? how have i lived this life that Daddy gave me..... ... ... makes me think alot abt life issues.. tat i wanna live my life tat at anytime i am ready to meet Him...

-aunty May, I will miss u lots.. thanks for all tat u have done for me... see u at Home..

today met up with my frens from Qing hua uni.. and went to yuan ming yuan for sightseeing.. kinda interesting although it was an hour plus of cycling from my school..but really enjoyed the time i have with them... frenship building time...

the best thing for all who is passionate for the CSM... well it continues here for me even if i am not in singapore... cos this morning... one china guy called to my hotel room... asking for me... which i learned later was that he has been asking at the front desk if there is any singaporeans staying in this hostel... and he struck jackpot.. cos i am the only singaporean in my school currently.. to the best of my knowledge.. and so he called.. and i met him later that night.. together with his son.. to jus have a chat on things in singapore.. cos he is quite interested in coming over to singapore to study music... well all CSM members... currently only 5, and anyone who is interested.. do take note for further updates... and yarp constantly...

在朋友一个一个的离去，也就告诉我，时间一去不回头的，若有什么话要对你至亲至爱的人说，就要把握机会，否则一过去了，就没那个机会了。。。　

exactly one week since i am back...

2007-03-07T07:05:00.000-08:00

everything has been going on quite well .. at least nowadays when i am done with classes there are people tat i can call out and meet with .. to a certain extent .. will be more exciting then the last semester.

today i finally collected the last of all my luggage that i left down here when i returned to singapore.. and the best thing was... i left the key to the luggage at singapore.. how dumb can i get man.. haiz.. so in the end have to pry it open lor, well at least i got all my stuff le and thats all tat matters... .... ...

For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain...

就象星星一样，在夜深人静的时候默默地守候在月亮旁边，当太阳升起，星星就可以淡化了。。。。。

ROUND 2 Readddiiieee..... GO!!!!

2007-03-04T06:07:00.000-08:00

yeah.. finally the long month winter break is over, and i am back at beijing for round 2 of my studies here.. this time round i guess it will be more exciting then the first one .. got to know more frens this time round... there was even a student body for the singaporean students.... which i din know at all... and apparently they also din know i existed in beijing.. so i was the lost sheep tat wandered ard aimlessly for a whole semester before i got caught back to the sheep pen.. it was only then i know there are actually ALOT of singaporean students studying there.. haiz... but good larh... i am ''home'' le... hee hee......

spending a month at singapore.. i really felt blessed.. and encouraged.. although there are times where i felt lost and disappointed .. but when ever i look at the blessings that Daddy gave... i always lost count... ... ...

Barney Hall of Thanks...( Month of Feb)

Alwyn:
hey bro.. really the first place mus go to u .. although we din get to talk or meet up often.. but the few times we did... was really fruitful... especially the one at the back to the main hall where u pulled me aside and told me that my time back at singapore is a holiday .... not back to work... and that really in a way set the priorities of how i spend my final 2 weeks.. in a more relaxed mode and enjoyed the holiday better... tat chat was crucial.. i believe tat without tat conversation.. i might have burned out somewhere in between..

yingxian:
my some wat half sister.. haha.. one who can stand my nonsense here and there... well no matter wat.. there is still five of us in the work ... hee hee.. yarh.. ur passion for the china students is greater.. and even to the point if u have to man the fort alone.. u are willing and prepared to do so.. and that spurred me on to do the same.. the times with the china students are really fun.. and good. do keep up with the work and keep me updated... will be here yarping for u guys.. ur game is the main game now in singapore lor... dun give up..

sheryl:
i was thinkin tat if u dun see ur name here u will most likely kill me or something... haha... yarh but really .. u deserved a place down here. the effort u took in helping me feel home and trying to catch me out for lunch and stuffs, the little encouragements, and reminders .. did served me alot.. !!! jiayou for ur studies ... hope to see changes when i come back..

jian nan:
wonder if u would see this.. but i really appreciate the help u gave me when i was back .. but really larh.. we should meet up more often.. be it online or anything else... take care bro..

huijun,yiqiang,guoyuan, becky and jas....
its really great to know u guys however short the time is.. the times at the badminton.. the times u guys asked me out for BS.. and even send me all the way back home.. thanks for tkin care of me so much... every little thing counts.. would really loved to spend more time with u guys.. huijun-thanks for being sensitive to my every little change in my emotions.. and being cranky with me as well... really appreciate it .. yiqiang- its good to talk to u .. there is alot of things i can learn from u.. guoyuan- haha... though we din talk much.. but i really appreciate ur help durin the times i was back.. to help me fit in to the crowd.. help me at the 'devilish' roller skating thingy, thanks alot bro.( and the photos...which i am still waiting... !!! -_-) becky-another cranky one... all ur funny expressions... [anyone wans the video on her 喜怒哀乐 please get from me.. ] hee hee.. i have all that i need to blackmail... so u better be nice to me.. heh heh.. but oh well on the other hand.. u are a real nice( and cranky) person to be with .. continue to work hard in nafa.. jiayou... lastly jas.. i really must thank u .. for if u din ask me out for the first BS.. i wouldnt even have got to know all these funky ppl out there... having got to know them made my second half of my holiday a more relaxed( although the schedule became more tight) and a more enjoyable wan... and in u.. i see the desire and the hunger for the Word that i hardly see out there... and thats incredible, and that spurred me on to do the same... thanks so much...
to be continued....

one night in beijing.. .... .... ...

2007-01-26T06:30:00.000-08:00

been thinking of something meaningful to write ... but nothing comes to my mind yet... haiz...

its going to be a busy day tml...

2007-01-25T05:41:00.000-08:00

got so many things to do before i leave ... packing up everything and sending them to different places to hibernate for the next month or so ... how i wish i can fast forward to tml 1440 when the exams is all over... but the most unusual thing is that i wanna enjoy every last bit of time i hav here... its going to be a month when i am back into the world i am familar with... well not so much also ..cos i am more familar with the life down here... reallie wonder at times the last few days ... abt singapore... what is it now... has it changed much ?? and i going to feel wierd with the life in singapore... hey ... now it feels the other way round... macham like china is my home and i am going to a new place... but hey... i believe it hasnt come to that stage yet... though i believe tat one day that my very well come .. but now ... it has yet to be.. there are still to many things tat i cannot accept ... like i said to huaken the other time.. if the surroundings cant change .... then change me... then let me be the one that change.. cos i guess that might be a greater challenge ... hmm......

oh well.. its time to go and slp le.. tml is going to be a fast day i see... hahahahaahaa.......

internet is going to be cut on friday the 26th from 0900 to 1600... and so is the tv,,,,

2007-01-24T07:05:00.000-08:00

sigh... thats what i saw today when i came back from revising my homework outside ... no tv...no internet...when i am done with my exams.... what a life... haiz... oh well
because of the break in internet services... so i might as well say something now that i might not have the chance to say on friday...

hmm... exams so far so good... difficult though... even for ppl like me ... i am finding it difficult .. more so for the koreans sia..
tht day i saw many ppl aka the koreans... just left the exam hall half and hour after the exam started... and heard many has handed in blank.... haiz... oh well.... -_-

2 more papers... just 2 more... focus.. .. i need to focus...

Starting to pack up le..... -_-

2007-01-20T22:28:00.000-08:00

i really din know that much books i hav bought in china... all the tiny little stuffs that i have purchased over the months over here can accumulate to so much .... i am amazed... other than my suitcase... i am looking at the possibility of packing 4 boxes of books and stuffs but of cos i am not bringing them back larh... i still have a long way to go in beijing ... not only just the physical things that i have accumulated down here.. but much more of the emotional/mental ( u guys know larh...) wealth that i have gained thru the 6 months here... its going to take sometime to process everything ....

well.. exams is starting again tomolo... so all u yarpers... please start working... heh!

the flight is CA969K 1530 - 2100 plus plus on the 27th jan

It is going to take all of me to trust.....

2007-01-18T10:13:00.000-08:00

its a difficult situation.... i was very upset and disappointed with myself for trusting them too easily.. to the point now that my own mistake can cause other ppl's problems... even rite now i dun know whats the outcome of the situation, i wanna declare that, because Jesus died on the cross for me, because He has done it once and for all, nothing tat can happen that Daddy din allow... so even the worst were to happen ... because He died on the cross for me, to forgive me, i can forgive myself....

countdown 11 more days to go.......

2007-01-17T08:51:00.000-08:00

i just cant wait...

countdown 12 more days to go...

2007-01-15T01:14:00.000-08:00

have been very busy lately... not only just exams... but also have to start packing up all my stuffs down here. all the books i have bought during the course of studies down here, by so far i already hav 2 boxes of books packed up, and still have more to pack up, starting to see the cosy little room that i have tried to make comfortable over the months down here return back to its original state... just got to know the flight no. and time already.. the flight is CA969K 1530 - 2100 plus plus on the 27th jan.
and because its not the midnight flight i originally tot it was.. so all my plans have to reshedule again, no more going out on saturday... everything have to be scheduled on saturday after the exam...

a major exam this wednesday.. to me is the hardest among all other exams.. its statistics.. even until now.. i still dun understand why being in a language class i have to take statistics... maths has been a killer subject to me... so much for thinking that being in a language faculty i will not see maths again .... worst of all... maths being taught in chinese.... *faint

thus after this wednesday's exams, everything is more or less over... i really dun wish to repeat this module again, but oh well.. all i am thinkin actually is about going home next week end... how i miss all the chicken rice, char kuay teow, mee goreng, anything doused with msg i like ... i just wanna enjoy the food... and the warm and humid weather...

my roommate is finishing his exams tomolo and leaving this saturday...then its all me alone... what a lonely last week of the semester in BNU.... -_-

really looking forward to home... but before that... studies ... study study and more study.. haiz... maximise my time ... keep my labtop away from my reach.. and sleep with my text book... hope for osomosis .... heh...

it still take ages to load this... but i am already used to it liao larh...

2007-01-13T06:01:00.000-08:00

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exams exams exams... haiz... soon it will be countdown liao... i cant believe it that its coming so soon.. i am going back to singapore..>!!!!!yay!!!!!!!! how i miss u guys... miss ya lots.... anyone want anything ??? please let me know asap...

because of the internet down here aint stable... so sometimes i cant online at all one... and also ... i need to focus on my papers.. but as long as u email me... i will still receive it one... so busy nowadays.. so next week hopefully i can get to write up my new year resos... and what i think this new year will be...

For Anything Impossible Trust Him.... thats FAITH... =)

it takes ages just to load this page sia... i am going crazy.... ..

2007-01-05T08:01:00.000-08:00

recent updates
blame that taiwan earthquake...cos it takes forever to load a page... as well as thanks to that earthquake cos now i dun have much of a distraction from the msn....

haiz... its one thing to love the night life... its another to have insomia... because of exams this coming week onwards... i felt that i have been very tensed up, and because of that, leads to insomia and also lost of concentration... i cannot focus during class, even to the point when the teacher ask me a question which i am supposed to be very familar with ... and yet my mind just went blank at that point of time. been thinking if i am making myself too nervous and worked up... cos in actual fact i have the natural advantage over other students.. i have the capabilities to do well... but because of all these advantages, i am puting myself in a cannot-lose situation...
-_-..

been thinkin alot lately, ( all the sleepless nights .... ) about the things that i wanna do before i return to singapore, all the things tat i need to accomplish.. all of a sudden, time seem so inadequate, just like the days before i left for beijing...

been settling down quite well... the winter winds in beijing is super strong, and cold... sometimes if i din eat lunch and breakfast(because i overslept...) , it can be strong enuff to almost blow me away... ( almost...) but also still looking for a place i can call home... a place i can connect at a deeper level...

some tots...
someone once asked me whats the difference between yongxian, barney and barnabas... hmm.. -_-

looking at quite alot of ppls blog made me feel like changing to another blog site.. cos this one quite plain sia... kinda wanna set it like my own webpage... hmm... any comments ???

one of my class mates( from malaysia ) asked me out for a game of badminton just now during dinner time.. i was super excited actually cos when i went with her and gang the last time, i had a super fun time with them.. cos all malaysians... can say all from the same region. but when she told me the time was on sunday morning... my heart went down. i remembered a tv-show i watched during the week about this england 4x100 olympics champion eric liddel (chariots of fire ) who was very determined not to run on a sunday (when his strongest event's trials was held on a sunday) and willingly gave up that gold medal which was already within reach... no one was able to convince him otherwise... and just before the night he went with the team out for that year's olympics... the prince of england actually met up with him in hopes to persuade him otherwise... but he was firm on his decision.
the whole story took an unexpected turn when another runner... who was touched by his faith, offered to switch with him, allowing him to run another event which was the 4x100 race.. on the day of the race, just as the runners were getting ready at the track, one person ran up to him and passed him a slip of paper, on it written "he who glorifies Me, i will not forget" ( or something like tat...) which eventually he won the race... ... ... ... because of that show that i have watched during the week... i turned the offer down... too me its a difficult situation, cos i really enjoyed sports even though i am not good at it.. but to me sports is my way of letting out emotions, a way of channeling my feelins in to energy, but because its winter here... i haven been really exercising alot lately... starting to have that spare tyre tummy liao... but really .. i am glad to have made that decision..

lots of stuff today sia... still alot in my mind though.. but i think thats enuff for today... =)

2007-01-03T10:20:00.000-08:00

still trying to find out the theme for this year.. still trying to know my role in this place... still tryin to be disciplined in my life... haiz...

whats abt this year... ??? i still aint sure about it yet.. haiz -_-....

2007-01-02T06:12:00.000-08:00

-lost for words... any comments anyone ??? -_-

no countdown... no service... no partying ... just a simple watchnight between me and Daddy..

2006-12-31T07:20:00.000-08:00

Reflections:
this year is different from all the previous years... no big hooha abt the watch night.. no hooha abt it being the last day of the year 2006, and that from tml onwards ... i can start to countdown 27 days to being back in the warm and cosy singapore.... ( yay!!!)

this year.. like i wrote in my journal, is a transition year... from NS to tecman to university in beijing, so many things have happened in the past 1 year, so many transitions has taken placed... and in each transition i can see tat its a building up process to where i am at now ... many times when faced with certain situations, the way i react to each situation, i can see tat its because of a lesson i have learned in the past... thus because i have been thru that .. i know how to react the way that Daddy would like me to ...

the later part of the year being in beijing .. also have learned to be more independent, and also, what it means to be as innocent as a dove and as wise as a serpent .. something more of like a survival lesson in this bigger picture called society.. thus like wat hua ken said to me... that in 4 years or so when i look back at this journey ... i would never be the same again ..
i would have grown so much because of my obedience to leaving singapore my comfort zone to be in this new place... a maturing process... (thank You Daddy ... )

hmm... what will then be the theme for the year 2007? well thats the topic for tmls blog lorh... so stay tune.... hee hee ... =)

yay!!! it snowed... lots of snow... !!

2006-12-30T07:53:00.000-08:00

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a fren of mine woke me up this morning with an sms .. telling me tat beijing finally snowed... hearing that really made my day... although it was still very early in the morning... and i am still in the midst of a chess game with zhou gong.. and my room mate is still snoring... i still managed to pull myself out of bed .. got changed .. and went out to the snow... met up with a class mate, went ard the school to take pictures.. and for the first time i understood the power of my camera.. being an all weather proof camera.. heh...
then at night met up with some locals that i got to know thru the family gathering a couple of days ago... met up for dinner... then took an after dinner walk .. which turned out to be super long ,,,, ard 后海，this beautiful place... which is actually a lake... but when winter comes... the water freezes enuff for us to stand on.. in a week or so.. the lake is going to be used as a outdoor skatin place.. the lake is surrounded by bars of all shapes and sizes... macham like the clarke quay... hah... haiz.. a pity that the net is pretty unstable due to the taiwan earth quake.. thus will upload it as soon as it is done ... =)

2 more days.. no.. actually one more day to the new year... woah... what a year it has been for me ... so much to reflect upon for this year... so much has happened from finishing ns to family camp .. to studying overseas... too much things hav happened in the short one year... tat i hav to reflect upon... -_-" and to set my new years resolutions... wonder if... hmm...oh well.. -_-

well... at least i tried...

2006-12-28T04:03:00.000-08:00

time now.. 20.00 pm .. i just came back from the kitchen.. and had my dinner already. i was so sick of the canteen food which i have been eating for almost every day since i came to beijing... i hav decided .. i will cook today .. (applause.. !) which i did.. and thus for dinner.. i had ... plain rice .. and 2 eggs.... (boiled..! -_- ") oh well... at least i did cook something ok...... and hope i wun kanna food poisoning larh.. haiz...

internet has been rather cranky nowadays... i bet its a sign to tell me to focus on the school work and the exams thats ard the corner.. good in a way larh.. so now usin the comp in the internet in the computer room in my hostel.. just heard abt the telecom lines in asia damaged by the earth quake.. so i guess that explains it all abt not being able to assess msn and everything else... yarh.. looking at the report from channelnewsasia.. yarh .. its quite bad... no wonder msn cant work lor...

hmm.. exams coming liao.. gotta put down everything else ... internet .. games... vcds... and all possible distractions to pia for my papers.. after all .. the main purpose of me being in beijing and no where else is so tat i can better focus on studying... its tough relatively... though i hav a better advantage then others... in terms of language abilities... last day of exams is on the 26th jan... and my ticket is on the 27th ... wat a timing.. -_-"

just to inform certain ppl whom i felt might possibly read my blog watsoever...

yingxian: i might not be able to talk to u as usual.. till my exams are over... the bulletins just continue to send to my email... any updates and stuff that u die die need me to know.... email me lor... i should be able to receive it hopefully...

alwyn: hmm... aiyarh.. anything we talk when i return lor... thanks for the testi anyways.. take care

sheryl: yarh .. i know i havent been talking to u much lately... hope everything has been going well for u .. my exams are ard the corner already... so i need to cut down on internet and msn... so catch up when i return then.. and regardin the things the vcds u want me to buy.. can send me the list again? jia yous... take care

queenie : if u happen to read my blog... my return date should be on the 27th .. time not confirmed yet... once the exams time table is out .. u are the first to know...=) (*longing to see the new building and missed "fei lou shipping" with u guys sia...*)

yarp ... for me, exams ... and the new home i go to now... .. haiz... tell u guys more when i come back lor ... =)

barney 28/12/2006

stress... stress... stress....

2006-12-26T05:21:00.000-08:00

haiz... really dunno the system down here... its exams in 2 weeks time... and we still dunno our exam time table.. and best of all ... when i checked my account online.. i just realised that i hav only 2 subjects listed when i am suppose to have 7 ... now i hav to see the teacher in charge tml to settle the missing subjects liao.. haiz.. wat a major cock-up... but nothing beats the fact that its exams in 2 weeks and no one knows abt the exams schedules ... not even the teachers... haiz.. suddenly make me so stressed up about the exams to come.. everything suddenly becomes so packed... rarh... now i am really starting to feel worried liao.. well at least i realised that exams is silently creepin ard the corner waiting to catch every one off guard ( like ... "hey!! tml's exam u study already ??" "huh? what exams???") i bet that would be possible lor.. and very rampant among the students down here... there isnt the study-for-exams "air" ard here...

wats going on sia... rarh.. must concentrate... concentrate...
time to set my life back on track...
time to slp early and wake up early... ( woah ... tuff sia )
good timing that the msn broke down at this time( oh well -_- ) ...
time to start counting down (soon..!! )
time to yarp more ... not just because its exams .. but more because i haven been doing that for a long time ... (haiz...)
haiz... what a time such as this... -_-" *shakes head*
and regarding round 2 of christmas shopping? forget it... haiz...

help... help... anyone ???? -_-

a quiet yet joyful christmas eve....

2006-12-24T08:35:00.000-08:00

i guess its the most quiet Christmas eve i ever had ... away from all the schedules... and also the pain still.. of kanna pick-pocketed... i felt different ... i wasnt sad because i was away from home at times such as this, i felt excited instead... excited of the new experiences, excited abt all the little stories i have been hearing lately, things i have been noticing along the streets... every little event tat happens out there in the streets, can be very interesting and meaningful, if u really look hard for it...

today i had a family gathering at my frens plac in the morning.. and because he lives very far away. i got up at 6 plus in the morning, just to make sure i am there on time... there i made many new frens .... got to know quite alot of new ppl... and also some who are living near me... among them got to know this gal that lives quite near me.. and can click very well ... so started talking more to her.. after the gathering i went to town to walk walk.. ... its like ppl mountain ppl sea... it was so crowded.. but this time .. i learned my lesson already.. i kept all my valuables close to myself , locked with a caribina... heh see who can open it... muhuahuahuahua... ard evening time.. when i was floating ard.. she beeped me, and we linked up at macs near my school. with another fren.. we floated ard the korean street aimlessly, before heading back to school and float somemore... before sending them back... though nothing much was done.. as in we din go to any place to hav fun... but along the journey.. we joked alot ... so much so that we laughed until our side ached... its a great time connecting with them ... quiet and peaceful... but never monotonous and dull... =)

although i know that it would hav been very much different back in singapore... all the activities... all the excitment.. all the fun... but hey.. its different for me this year... felt so different especially when the festive season approach... and today, felt like it was the highlight of it... my social life is increasing beyond the korean circle liao... though they remained a very large portion of my social circle... but hey.. its good ... definately wonderful to find ppl u can connect with without language barrier.... =))

yarp... all u fellas.... yarp with me ... -_-

2006-12-23T05:06:00.000-08:00

today i went to hua kens place for a christmas gathering, family style... felt so homely. everything would have been perfect if not for what has happened as i made my way there...

i have this pda that was given to me by my dad before i left came... one of my most prized possession.. so digging into my memory database.. i remembered while changing bus... i did took out my pda to check the number of the next bus i am suppose to take to get to my frens place. after tat i placed it back into my jacket pocket and buttoned up... when the bus finally arrived.. as usual... i literally have to "fight" my own way up the bus... and as usual, it was super crowded... when i arrived at the destination, and got off the bus... wanting to take out the pda and double check the address... i found it missing... haiz... kanna pickpocketed... i was so so angry initially, wonder what on earth has happened, who could have known i have that in me.. then i remembered i did take it out at the bus stop while waiting for the next bus.. so the thief might hav spotted it and followed me up the bus... now i can write down here at a rather peaceful tone is because i have already been thru the anger period.. everything has been processed with Daddy liao... although still feel super disappointed now.. haiz...

everything that has happened recently hasnt been tat smooth .. i have learnt alot of things that i might not hav in singapore.. being streetwise... and now knowing how to guard my own things.. somethings that i felt i might not have been able to learn if i remained in singapore... and now especially after today.. i almost got so upset that i really hate these ppl... which i dun want to ... yarp, i dun want to hate the very ppl i am called to love.. hmph.... -_-'"

round 1 of Christmas shopping.... hee hee....

2006-12-20T09:57:00.000-08:00

oh well... its christmas in five days... although this year its going to be very much different compared to the previous years... cos its not a big thing down here... (man.. its not even a holiday on christmas day itself...and i still hav school lor... rarh...) and only in big shopping malls u can see abit of the christmas decos, santa claus n a couple of the christmas trees... to them christmas is still about santa claus.

well after almost 3 hours of aimless floating ard... including almost 45 mins at a arcade that i found down here, playing daytona... i bought a badminton racket of abt 110(discounted) , a new mickey mouse brand - pluto wallet of 89 ( discounted by a pretty shop girl... hee =P) ,a new casio watch of 95 (after a heated bargaining) ... felt contented... at least i din waste money on non-useful stuffs( as i would normally do just to buy something, just because it looks nice... even though i hav no need for it...)

well at least today i have successfully resisted the sweet talking of many shop-girls... resisted the urge to buy certain look-nice-but-useless things.. so its a good start to progress into round 2... hee hee....

hmm ... begin to wonder whassup for me this Christmas.... whats going to happen..? anything exciting ??? -_-

我已不再天真了。。。

2006-12-19T11:11:00.000-08:00

上个星期天，我从教会回家时在搭地铁时，发现了这则新闻，当时就是一位卖报纸的人在地铁里大喊着：“刘德华昨晚被枪杀，享年49岁”。当时我整个人就呆住了，也毫无疑问的立刻买了一份来看。当时我就在想，好可惜，一代天王竟然落得如此下场。虽然我不是刘德华的影迷，也不是很崇拜他（当然不会。。）但是毕竟我是看着他的电影长大的，有一定的感情成分在内。所以我还是感到有一点惋惜。但是越想越觉得不对劲，因为如此大的新闻我竟然不知道，也没在其他的报纸上看到，虽然我已经很久没有留意到娱乐界的新闻了，但是也不至于连这么大的新闻我听也没听到，越想越奇怪。。。后来回到家时，上网查了一下，竟然也没有任何刘德华被杀的消息，所以在我查的详细一点后（search 刘德华被杀）后我就发现一些报道说这则新闻早在八月份就已经出现过了，是假的。。。　我当时很愤怒，我想这种事也是可以拿来开玩笑的吗？为了赚钱而乱说话（而且那份报纸很贵，比普通的报纸贵多了）。。。同时也觉得很傻，竟然被骗了。后来跟同学聊起这件事时，她说，这已经不是第一次了，已经习以为常了。

之后我在想，为了赚钱，他们可以如此捏造新闻来谋利。也想到因为这在新加坡是完全不可能发生的。从来没想到竟然会有这种事情，所以培养了一种完全相信报纸的习惯，一种对报纸的信赖。因为都报导在报纸上了不可能是假的。所以当我看到这则新闻时我也就信以为真，还真的有一点伤感。

这件事的发生让我很难在相信在这里大部分的报纸了，想到金钱的魔力是如此的强大，强大到人们可以为了谋利可以如此的重伤别人。所以经过这件事，我已不再天真的轻易相信这里的报纸了。

haiz... makes me understand the fact that one cannot serve 2 masters... cannot serve money and Daddy at the same time ... makes me abit disappointed and discouraged at the same time.. especially this was not the first time i was cheated ... there was once somebody approached me to asked me for money and offered to return me, asked me to give him my hp no. so tt he can contact me again.. which he din... and a few days later... i received a sms(phoney of cos... ) from this bank saying that i spent 4000 dollars in credit card bills at this dunno where shopping mall... asking me to pay up. that was early in my days down here so not much ppl has my hp no.. so i immediately tot of tat guy... i was thinking after helping him ..now he is trying to cheat more money out of me ... !!??? what kind of world is it down here..!!?? its so so different down here compared to singapore, as a product of the singapore's courtesy campaign (all the 好公民lessons since pri school days...) from school i've learned of a term tat came out recently, “杀熟”which means to "kill"those u know ( basically ur frens or relatives...,) haiz.. all i am yarping for is tat i do not lose the focus that i am here for, to study.. and know why Daddy send me here for... =)

my first christmas away from home...

2006-12-17T07:32:00.000-08:00

yarh... in a weeks time its going to be Christmas liao... its going to be my first Christmas away from home.... even in army days... Christmas has always been packed with activities... but this time round.. i think its going to be quiet and simple...

having spent quite sometime with the also overseas student down here... mainly the koreans... i hav seen a major trend prominent among the students... that is they tend to go out spend late nights partying ... running ard places...pubs, ktvs.. everywhere... just to...i feel keep their minds off thinking about home... cos reallie.. having being "plucked" from their original life... to a foreign land.. to learn abt a language totally foreign to them... is really not easy.. so they sticked to their own clicks... their own ppl... cos thats where they felt comfortable and homely... doing things to compensate... or to fill that void... ... and for me... being the only singaporean down here... circumstances has allowed me to not transform this place to another singapore... rather transform me to suit this place... to get used to the new life down here... so in a way ... i felt ... tats better... cos thru this i am "forced out" of my comfort zone... that pushes me to do alot of things that normally i wun do ...

well... i guess being quiet allows me to think of more things.. and better to listen from Daddy ... He knows best for me ..., =)

2006-12-14T06:12:00.000-08:00

having met up with hua ken last week ... and shared out some of the thoughts tat has been bothering me for quite some time.. from his point of view, i understood that the emotional and feelings that have been in a way bothering me ... all the sleepless nights were good (in a way) cos during all these nights i was able to gather my thoughts and allow myself to better understand how i feel, how i behave, all the emotional feelings thats raging inside me... to in a way better understand myself ...

During these 4 months or so ... the times when i am not so sure of my purpose here, the times when i am so sick that for 3 days or so i am confined to bed... all these times Daddy has showed me alot about myself.. and more about His love for me despite i am alone from myself, away from family and friends... thats why i said that i used to know what kinda person i am .. but having gone thru this 4 months, now i am not so sure.. cos Daddy is always showing new aspects of His love for me that He wants me to learn from.. thus unknowingly i am changing and when i realised it... it was like woaahhh.... i din know i was tat... hmm...

4o plus more days till i return... how i miss home... and how i miss this place when i return to singapore ... =)

Class outing...

2006-12-03T10:09:00.000-08:00

(all koreans and one singaporean ... -_-)

yay..went out with my class yesterday.. though all koreans and i am the only singaporean down there... but i reallie enjoyed the times i have with them... ate at a jap restaurent, then went to a pub to continue the night out.. then ktv and lastly ate at a korean restaurent for breakfast ... first time since i came to beijing that i spend the night out in the open... felt that i am starting to break into the korean circle... though actually i never really wanted to go initially, cos the other 2 in my class who i can talk to better isnt going ... so meaning there is a major communication barrier for me.. but still thinking that its a good opportunity to get to know them better and also let them know me better ... cos they always see me as the one with a cap and rarely talk or communicate with them macham like the quiet and mysterious one in class ... they even tot i was a korean initially... but this outing really broke the ice between me and them.. its crucial cos after all i have 4 years with them to go... still a long way... some one must attempt to break the ice after all... ( hmm.. so i am not tat much of a introvert after all okay...! )

i am starting to like class more and more liao... begining to find it more of a joy and looking forward to classes liao.. though the climate is still hard to adapt... haiz.. but that's no prob in time to come i believe... =)

overseas experiences....

2006-12-01T05:26:00.000-08:00

its kinda how amazing the way i see it ... that a situation can mould a person, or change a person's habits... having came from army, and being in one of the most tough units in armour... so i always tot that having graduated from a unit such as this.. placing anywhere in the world i should be able to adapt to any harsh kind of environment ... but i was proven so wrong since the day i stepped in china... not to say that this place is worse than the conditions i hav been when i was in NS... its just different... the total change of the weather and climate... to a point i am sick for 5 out of 7 days in a week... but also in times like this i realised how to make certain changes to my life style to change certain areas to suit to the climate... (disciplining myself i would say.... ) like all the new personal health care i need to take note of down here which i dun need to back in singapore... all the preparations tat i take to prepare just to step out of house .... which back in singapore, i just step out when ever i want to... in shorts or in slippers.. down here... especially in winter.. tats practically not possible.. though i still can attempt to... just freeze marh...

anyway.. the semester is almost half way thru liao... kinda abit sad though... cos these few months though hectic and difficult.. i hav grown to see what a person i hav became ... being alone out here.. the real "me" when nobody is looking.. and the things i hav learned to be independent (on Daddy) has been a entirely new level for me .. .. ..

The road diverged, and i took the one less travelled, and that made all the difference... =)

HEY !!! sorry for the long absence... !!!

2006-11-27T07:30:00.000-08:00

before u guys stone me for not seeing any updates down here after queenie announced the web add to YC... down here the web aint stable at all... sometimes a certain webpage just cannot be accessed at all for a long time.. so for quite a while i havent been writing down here... well just a quick update for u guys who hav been popping by and leaving in disappointment.. well, i hav been going thru quite a tough time.. thru food poisoning( i guess !) and then flu now... but thru this short 2 weeks that i am sick .. i hav seen how Daddy worked in many areas of my life... how He has led me to discover certain issues of my life, issues with the family, with my own self discipline.. its amazing time i had... especially the food poisoning ... its like a turning point in my time down here... thru the days where i was confined to bed.. and within 5 metres from the toilet... i hav been thinkin alot. and now learning to look at things differently with a new "specs"

do keep me in prayer .. the time for exams should be mid jan next year.. so i am starting to prepare for my exams liao.. i want to do well to glorify Daddy ... He made it all possible for me to be here in the first place..

ps. and if ever i never update for a long while.. dun blame me larh.. the web down here... haiz...

Singaporean mee goreng

2006-11-01T05:33:00.000-08:00

been sick for the past few days, here in beijing the air is quite dry, plus i hav a bad habit of breathing thru my mouth and not my nose... so my throat gets dry easily and plus the bacteria n the germs... sore throat is a common thing for me... bad timing was tat i had it as i was preparin for my chinese oral exam yesterday... so todays exam abit nervous, some more being the third last guy of the whole class ... i waited for almost 3 hours before my turn. but on the average, its not as hard as it seems... so still quite ok larh i guess..=)

and after the test ended, i went to the market to top up stuffs... and while walkin up and down, i suddenly hav the crave for maggie mee, the singaporean-heavily-msged maggie mee... especially the mee goreng, but they dun hav... none of it ... man .. i would do anything ( hmm.. at least most of the things,) for a packet of mee goreng... my tastebuds r petitionin for msg. chilli and all the singaporean local foods....

long time no see ppl...

2006-10-30T12:04:00.000-08:00

its been a long week i would say.. a tough one also... homeworks are starting to pile up already... teachers just keep giving thousand words essays... i guess for me its still ok... cos after all.. back in JC i was already writing thousand words essay.. but for the koreans in my class they hav a real tough job ahead.. oh and the school server crashed after a blackout schoolwide last saturday morning.. and it was only today or should i say yesterday that the server is back up again...

winter is coming liao.. with the rapid changes in weather.. i hav fallen sick... so hav to pray for me .. dun seem to adapt to the cold weather down here very well... and the sleepless nites i hav come to a better conclusion... is to talk to the Shepherd rather than count the sheep... its works better.

I want the grace of a new begining...

2006-10-25T08:07:00.000-07:00

when everything that i hav, everything tat i believed in, when all that i am is shaken off... what remains is my relationship with my Father. Let all that i am be all that You want me to be. Let me be in Your plans walking the path that You hav laid out for me. Guard me and keep me from sinning. Be my guide and lead me...

2006-10-22T08:11:00.000-07:00

its a happy day, going to church in the morning and discovered that we hav a special speaker from america, from martin luther church, st louis... and hearing a speaker speak in english is the main highlight of the day. He spoke on our form of worship unto God...

a teacher of mine once said during lesson, that our time here in beijing is very short, only 6 months for a semester. and we must not waste time, we must make use of every bit of the time tat we hav to learn as much as possible. so that we will not regret it when we return, he is so right i hav been here for 2 months liao, and hav yet to really sit down and think abt what God has for me here.... in 3 more months plus i will be returning to singapore for a break, i dun wanna waste the rest of the time liao.

Be alert and watch what the Lord has for me !

1234am 22102006

2006-10-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

i am so happy today... finally found some one in class whom i can talk to for a long time in chinese... other than the teacher. 2 in fact, one from France and the other from malaysia. got to talk to the french more, cos she sits directly behind me... her parents were from beijing, and the reason she is back to study chinese, is that she also want to be a teacher too!!! yay!!! after all we are the minority people group in the class... so naturally can click better..

and the temp down here is really dropping by the leaps and bounds, they hav a saying in chinese called 一阵秋雨一阵寒, meaning in autumn, after rain the temperature will drop or become cold. yarh like today ... went down to 10 to 15 deg, can see a little mist when i breathe... soon i need to put on my gloves and fleece when ever i wanna go out... heard that their heaters will only be operating at 17 nov (nation wide policy) *faint, wonder how am i going to tahan till then...

(-.-)

2006-10-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

recently because of the weather... and maybe also because of something i ate... wasnt feeling too well... plus also a relapse of an old illness... caused me much discomforts.... but is now feeling better already ...

another thing was that i finally picked up the pace in studying... although i am in a class of mostly ppl that doesnt really like to study... can see from their attitude of studying... i mean some of them can just walk out of the class when the teacher is talking... or some can be super late for class... but i am really glad that the friends that God set around me are not of these types... although i will not say they are entirely very hard working... but at least i can see they wanna learn.

i dun wanna submit to indifference... thats not part of me... i wanna change.... *growl*

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2006-10-09T07:07:00.000-07:00

must be the weather larh... turning very cold these few days... especially after the sunday rain.. even in the midday i can feel the chilly wind...

rarh... headache arh.... haiz... ( see larh... *conk me on the head larh.. ... hehe..)

but really.. now tat i am more focused on studying.. i am actually quite happy and enthusiastic to study .... something tat normally dun happen to me wan. there must be more than this... i wanna interact with the koreans... with the japs... though we are of totally different background ... but since they are here now... studying in the same class together... there must be a way to break the ice and talk...(-O-)

more and more of You God... and really miss ya ppl back in YC....

somebody *conked some sense into me liao.... thanks .. i need it..!

2006-10-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

... i hav to admit ... i did let my guard down, having found that i am better than most of the other students in my class because of my chinese background, i din pay much attention to the importance of the chance that God has given me to come to beijing to study. That no matter wat the situation is, i still have to work HARD, i cannot forget the expectations of all those who cares for me and has been praying for me... my purpose now is to study, and i needed to come to a point to focus on what i am called to do ...
the word that came to me was , to dare to swim pass the sights of the shore, i cannot move on here if i am still wanting to stay in the past...

so i have to thank u, yingxian, for *conking* some sense into me. ur passion for china is greater than me, thank u for being firm(fierce!) with me... ur encouragements for me( in a unusual way).. thanks , u will see me less in msn liao... i am going to study liao.... sniff sniff..

oh and must thank sheryl, for all the encouragements and chit chats tat last late in the night.. thanks but i guess u still need to learn to sleep earlier... and do things at the normal timing..

thanks shawn, wow.. for coming online just to see my blog.. heh, thanks bro, really miss ya man... miss the times i have with u just talking abt life and whatever thats going on.. will catch up with u more when i come back.... =)

yarh.. so in conclusion of wat i was being *conked* for ... i need to go back to wat i said before i left for China, that i need to cut down on my msn... and focus on my life here and not the life tat i use to have in singapore.. unless i am willing to swim past the sights of the shores... i will not discover new ground.... God help me.... (-.-)

moon-cake festival... but can't see the moon... -_-" now can ,.. but smaller i think...

2006-10-06T08:03:00.000-07:00

oh well... wanted to go out today... but the weather was quite bad... and hazy.... so in the end, i stayed in the hostel the whole day.... and believe it... i studied... and did my revision... (*applause applause*) only evening time when the weather was better, then i went out for dinner... and cycle around the area... then it start to rain.... haiz... fortunately i was inside the hostel when it started to rain heavily... first time i see such a heavy rain in beijing..

yarh as i was writing this.. went out to see the moon..... cos the rain stop ... in conclusion ... the moon in singapore rounder and bigger i guess... like that all say ... the moon at home is always rounder marh... hee... =)

11.57 pm 05102006

2006-10-05T09:02:00.000-07:00

well.. its moon-cake festival tml ... and 4 days into my holidays liao... still feeling too slack, no motivation to study at times... most of the time i just sleep thru the day ... or watched vcds and animes... but somehow i felt that that should change.. but always never been really able to put my heart into it... things must change... but hey.... at least i took a step today...... i deleted a game tat i have been playing for a long time.. and kept the cds in my drawers liao.... so i am off for a good start i guess.... =)

down here... the nights are getting colder ... and starting to see less and less people out in the night ... so soon i guess i can go out in the streets and sing " one night in beijing"... hee hee...

my focus ...

2006-09-30T00:09:00.000-07:00

God told me that my focus should be on Him and not on the christian friends that i am still desperately trying to find... that He and He alone will be my comfort when i need it ... that unless i find my security in Him, otherwise no amount of friends will be able to bring me the joy and peace that only He can give.... so i am now in the process of doing that... being in this place, surrounded by people of different countries, mainly koreans.. and being the only singaporean, sometimes i so long to find someone tat speaks english to me.. thats what i normally dun do back in singapore.... being the only chinese( i guess ) its kinda hard to mix ard in the class of mainly koreans ,... but HEY .. i am still doing well... getting to talk to the koreans .. mixing ard with them.. so much so that out of a suddent they start talkin korean to me ... then i go... o.0?..... even online .. cos of my korean name that my friend translated for me ... i have ppl initiating a conversation with me with korean... hahaha...

tough lesson.... too much of a propaganda....

2006-09-27T00:12:00.000-07:00

just had a lesson ... a lesson on a mass media and literature... during the whole lesson i was trying my very best to be alert to the things i hear and which i should accept and which i should not... in general the teacher was like telling the class about marxism ... about how bad the rest of the world are compared to china in terms of culture and history ... to a certain i can say alot of the things the teacher said is very biased and eventually the teacher talked about how logic and reasoning of the world, how science and technology has eventually removed the need and the existence of God .. ( amazingly at this point of time of the lesson i was re-reading the book The case of a creator - by Lee Strobel) ... at the end of the lesson i was really worned out ... by all the mental battles that were going inside my mind.... the teacher was very convincing .. he made it sound like only communism is correct ...(the worst part was that he tried to convince the class that not only china ... even else where in the world ... as long as the person is educated or have the least knowledge in science... he will know that there is no God in the world... ) (sigh... -_-" to think there are still ppl believin that we came from monkeys...)

well ... i must remember that i am in China... in a land where ppl dun believe in God ... yes the number of Christians are rocketing in numbers ... but the land is still hard... the ppl are still blinded... like what Joel said before i left ... when he prayed for me... i am going to a land where God is not known to the ppl ... where materialism, money and communism are king of the land... everything is different from the time i first time i stepped into china during the mission trip many years ago... this time i am in a big city ... surrounded by ppl who are only concerned about themselves... ... ... sniff... these ppl needs the Lord... only He can solve their hurts, their problems .. but yet they dun know Him. .... at this time i begin to question myself .. my purpose here... it has to be more than just studying ... if God's sole purpose for me here is to study ... then He wun bring me to China... singapore will do already ... it has to be more than just that... ... ... .... ( i wanna plunge into the river... !!!!)

soon in a few more hours .. it would have been my '' first month '' anniversary here liao... i would have completed my first month here... safe and sound !!! hahaha.... what a eventful month ... more than what i could have imagine... yup.. i must thank all u ppl for keeping me in prayers and walking with me thru this ... *roarrrrrr*

我是好汉 part 2

2006-09-23T09:34:00.000-07:00

like a bit obvious... that we wont jump or open the door at that height....... o.O
my fren took for me wan.... we took the cable car down.... due to time constrains.. we dun have the time to walk all the way down .... dun have the strength either .... -_-
that guy... behind, totally ruined such a good pic... what a pity......rarrrhhhhh......
we took this pic when we reached the highest point... man i almost forgot i have a phobia of heights.. somemore they dun hav railings ard ... o.O

我是好汉！！！！！

2006-09-23T08:52:00.000-07:00

oh this ..... hmm.... this is one wierd or i say unique design i saw on the floor of the great wall... dunno what it means or signifies...

yup... more photos of us....... =)

me and my group of new frens i met during the trip ... from the left is 朴珍英, me, 全志仁 ,
　宰永 , we met on the bus and can click well so we decided to walk the great wall together, oh by the way they are all koreans ...

the view of the great wall as we walked up.... i tell u its no joke walking it ... haha.... thats my proof !! i have been been to China ...!! yay... though thats quite expensive i would say ... 20 rmb ... ( i guess i am getting used to their currency and not comparing with singdollars liao)

lets see.....

2006-09-22T08:57:00.000-07:00

.... man look at the sunset here in beijing... its so beautiful ........ (^n^)

the street outside my hostel at 3 am in the morning... very beautiful scene... and i realised one thing is that they hav vehicles cleanin the streets at that hour.... thats why looks so clean everynight....

YiPpEe !!!! I gOt In!!!!!!!

2006-09-21T07:37:00.000-07:00

yay!!! i got it!!! ....haha.... ehem ... gettin in to the faculty of chinese language and literature, firstly i wanna thank God.. He is faithful and His abounding grace is more than enough for me... He has brought me here so He will take care of my every needs...... secondly i wanna thank my parents, thru every possible way and means..... they have been really a great help and support to my studies here.... thirdly i wanna thank all the ppl back in singapore.. ppl from my cell and my church , my circle of frens, people who has been praying for me .... love ya ppl.... thanks so much ....... lastly i must .. of cos thank all u ppl who has been visiting my blog and leavin ur footprints behind... thanks so much ... ur footprints really made me feel the love of a family and that i am not forgotten....!!!

so right now just wanna reply some tags here.....

1. yingxian.. thanks so much ... talking to u always reminds me of the purpose i am here.. and the encouragements u gave are really timely.... though u always suan me and say me introvert lar or frog in the well lar..... oh well.. thats u mah..... anyway thanks so much .... take care too ! \=)

2. may.. though i haven really been reading ur blog but knowing that u have already made the decision ... thats good... glad to know that God is leading u to ur dreams .... step by step .... like a bridge that will only show up when u step on it with faith.... focus on this step .... and God will show u the next...... and thanks for the bracelet.... its right here on my table..... =)

3. da ge Ian.... haha... yah ... still keep on forgetting to take a picture of the bike... soon soon.... hee.... yar.... miss talking to u ..... wonder how have u been doing in aust. also..... u take care.. we'll catch up when i return.....=)

4 . ana... thanks for the happy birthday... cell is dependin on you guys liao....... be strong and courageous... i believe this is the time that cell will expand .... so really.. man ur posts... the battle is going to the final stages... take care too !! (^n^)

5. Yoz... winnie... so long never see u liao....... and now its going to be even longer till we meet again .... yah i know u are busy ... but must keep in contact ok? take care too ^V^

6. Yo al.. thanks .. yah .. really lookin forward to complete my CMC course... soon soon..... i can see the changes liao...... so far so good.... take care.. and finish the last days of ur army without regrets..... any thing u wanna do ? (legal) or ppl u wanna talk to.. do it.. close the chapter of army well and move on to the next stage...... take care.... *high five*

7. jas.. yeah.. i believe so too..... our God is faithful!!! yah... been cycling almost everyday.. my skills are getting better ... so i guess when i return next feb..... we can organise a overnight cycling liao..... oh man i am getting excited liao... haha... take care..... =)

8. Paul.... yeah man of cos i remember u .. though we are at different parts of the world. i am getting used to the life here liao.... so sad i might not see u next year when i return... u take care ... we'll meet someday definately !!!

9. hey nicole!! yup indeed He is mighty to save... i am experiencing more and more of His grace and mercies everyday ...... u take care too.... we'll catch up when i come back...... ;)

10. abi..... i just wanna say......... *CHIAK*...... thats all.................

hmm... no lah..... hee... i think u are the first one that said you are missing my disturbings... haha.. ok dun worry ... i will give u a 6 month worth of it when i return ..... muhuahuahua.... well u must study hard... jiayou !!! glorify God with ur results... take care... when u start ur exams... send me a copy of the exam time table for the YCers... the one that queenie always put in bulletin wan.. yah.. i will be praying for u guys... =)

lastly for today... Q,
hmm... is it queenie?? i dun remember any others havin the initials Q... so believing its queenie...
yup.. thanks for the encouragements....... i will always remember wat u prayed for me during the service ... that YC is always there for me... that i am part of the family and i am loved... that really uplifts my spirit whenever i am down or feeling lonely down here... thanks so much and ya... if possible, although i know u must hav been very busy now that pastor and Ian are both not ard... can u compile and upload to some website or a share folder, the sermons that is recorded during service...... pleaseeeeeeeeeee....... ? thanks .... take care.... miss ya ppl :)

=Barney

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2006-09-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

i guess right now .. putting aside everything..... the one main thing i ask .... i ask for christian frens, mentors, ppl that i can keep accountable to ... people tat i feel comfortable with sharing my life and my struggles..... people that can check on my life and guide me along the way ..... its too lonely here......

The first accident......

2006-09-20T08:53:00.000-07:00

oh well..... actually nothing much also.... just a head on collision with another bike..... apparently neither of us were lookin straight at tat time when we 'met' ...... well nothing serious..... no injuries..... just that my bike's basket dented thats all.... ....... ........ -_-

me and my little tortoise....(apparently the tortoise is not here yet .. still crawling.. hav patience ppl... )

2006-09-19T08:59:00.000-07:00

hmm.. so far the lessons have been tougher and tougher..... its not like there is a textbook or a series of notes and lectures that u can read thru and revise and hopefully with sheer will and mind power can pass... i guess that might be the case for other faculties... but this is language and literature...... the books that i have to read ... like wat my teacher has said to us.... might even just go up to a thousand books during this 4 years here.... haiz.... beging to wonder why i took lit now..... i never passed it during my sec school days...... one of the main difference between me and the china students is the amt of literature they've read during their school days ...... its just way more than a typical student in singapore would read...... other than that i have no problem with their language and stuff...... just literature alone ... is enuff to kill me liao..... -_-

well since God has called me here.... opened the doors for me ...... chose this faculty for me .... He WILL be faithful to teach me to do well in the subject i always failed ...... my worst subject during my school days..... i know that He will ..... totally trusting Him ....... rrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

first day of actual lessons.... i can only say .... its really difficult....

2006-09-18T07:31:00.000-07:00

its really a heaven and earth difference between the 2 faculties..... the lesson is so difficult.... almost couldnt catch what the lecturer was speaking...... but hey! tats a challenge ...... i like that..... at least now i am learning more stuffs........ =)

Barney's recaps version 1.2

2006-09-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

wow... i din expect to see horses running ard in the streets of beijing...... and thanks to my lightning quick little finger ..... i managed to catch this pic...... =)

this place is somewhere down the street i lived in.... about half and hours walk ..... yup.... pretty nice view here......

oh.... that looks like me!!! dun u all think so ?

Yeah .. thats my school "parade square"..... pretty romantic especially at night, yarh .... if i take away all the nc-16 scenes i see there...... *oops....

I must have faith ..!!!

2006-09-15T07:53:00.000-07:00

yeah indeed i must have faith..... in times like this... my faith must rise up.... the 2 exams ahead of me is not able to cause me to doubt my God's goodness and my God's faithfulness, my God is more than enough for me ....

Simply take God at His word....

2006-09-14T07:24:00.000-07:00

When God start a work ... He is faithful to finish the work He has started ... He said that He will not take me out of singapore and leave me here to fend for myself ... His plans is perfect, and He knows everything that i am thinkin and feeling....

been going thru a difficult time.... the faculty that i got into, studyin with the foreigners is not suitable for me .. havin studied chinese all my life... and that faculty is for foreigners that has not studied chinese as a mother-tongue, so its too simple for me.... and thus today i went and talked to the teachers, and opted for a change in faculty to studying with the locals, has already left the original faculty that i am in, but is not yet accepted into the faculty that i wanna go to, so i am like left hanging in the air. and if they dun accept me, i also cant return to the original faculty that i am in now... so its all up to God now. gotta depend on Him totally. and trusting Him that He will bring me thru. He gave me this calling, He has provided everything that i need along the way, why should i still doubt about my trip here... I know my God... my Father is not one who brings His children out to a foreign land and leave them hangin in the air... it has already been a tough decision to leave singapore, He knows best, and i know Him.. He will not bring me out of a comfortable zone into this foreign land and not give me the course i am here to study .....

Not because of who i am, but because of what You've done
Not because of what i've done, but because of who You are.....

yah .. so today i went ard talking to ppl getting signatures(sounds so army), but also thru that begin to know alot more ppl, teachers mostly, and thru talking to them, i found favour with the teachers and they really helped me in settling my changing course procedure =) , its a great time talking to them, sharing with them my passion for chinese...

i need to pray with greater passion now than ever..... !!!!!!!

Back to secondary 1 ... i mean square 1...*-_-"

2006-09-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

haha.. kinda funny that i said i am ready to fight .... the first day of lesson and i found that i am back to secondary school learning new words and stuffs... being in a class of 11 ... the only chinese and also the only other guy in the class... the rest are korean and jap gals.... sigh... 阴盛阳衰 ah ... oh and the lesson... my first homework is on a short speech on the topic on 我的愿望... definately somewhere i can hear the pin drop... .... haiz.. really gotta pray about this ... cos i really dun wanna waste my time here...

yeah .. i am begining to get to know more ppl here liao thanks to some one saying me introvert.. .... (ehem...)

so today i gotta know this gal from vancouver ... who wanted to teach China history when she returns to canada... i mean there are ppl who are passionate and really dare to work hard for something that they want ... really really impressed .... !!!

done with crying .... now lets fight... roar

2006-09-11T08:40:00.000-07:00

bought my text books today... read thru it liao ... felt tat for some of it... if i work fast enough i might be able to finish in a couple of days .. but i guess the harder part may come only on the lessons itself ... lessons going to start tml morning... so excited about seein my new class mates... yeah ... i will be fine... barney is up again, ready to fight... nothing is going to hold me down for too long... i'm done with all the cryin... now lets fight... *roar*
its time to say good bye to all the games and VCDs that i have been into these few days ... time to study liao... =) haha... its so wierd .. i never wanted to study so much before in my life... *gosh* oh and i am begining to make more new frens ... got a long chitchat with the shop lady at my hostel... just talking about stuffs... still dunno if i wanna take the class changing exams.. but for now... i am satisfied...

abit sad though today .. msn cannot work...... i guess its God's way of telling me that i should cut down on it ..... =)
ok thats all folks.. i will update more when i start school... =) take care loads !!!!!!!

-_-"

2006-09-10T08:36:00.000-07:00

results are out ... and though i am still not very sure about the class placement situation here... but i guess i am not in the best class ... and i dunno if i wanna take the class changing exams... sigh.. kinda really upset about it... but really larh ... i have absolutely no idea about whats going on here... have to check it out tml then will know more things... but so far so bad..... hee hee... yeah... but nothing is going to take away my joy..!! being in what ever class that i am in have to be God's plan for me... if not ... I know for sure that He will tell me to change... every thing works well for those who loves Him... and i am taking God words for that...

oh and finally i been to church today .. though its quite traditional and (boring) ... but its good to be home ... =)
its over a hundred years old !! and its quite big ..!!! but still not quite used to the service .. very different from YC and the family of KY ....

Happy birthday to me .. !! happybirthday to me... (sniff)

2006-09-08T08:44:00.000-07:00

yeah... my 22nd birthday here on earth... my last one... for this year ... well .. (*duh..) yeah ... first time i spend it out in a foreign land... well the least... my room mate celebrated it for me with another of his fren ... a gal... but haha... the most funny thing was that all the time he and th gal were chatting and as we walked to one of our favourite eating place... i was like walking behind.... while they were talking infront... so somehow i wonder if its my birthday ...-_- oh well... after all.. i forgot when was the last time some one celebrated my birthday with a birthday cake.. so still i thank him for going all the way to do that for me...

yeah ... autumn is approaching... getting real chilly nowadays ... went all the way to 20 deg today... and still going down... and because its so dry... my face is like flaking now.. haha =) yeah... the opening ceremony today was a *yawn... boring thing..... yah..
and they have a gathering sort of ... for the old and new students.. which i din attend ... i dun quite like crowds ... or not used to it yet.... yah anyway ... really looking forward to knowin my new class mates and getting my books on sunday... =)

Barney's recaps version 1.1

2006-09-07T08:39:00.001-07:00

In singapore we have the 2 biggest "durians" well here they have the biggest "watermelon" @@
u may not believe but this is my first meal here... -_-"

My bed.... for the next 6 months at least.... =)

Ok ppl... recaps for barney's first week in china... =)

2006-09-07T08:04:00.000-07:00

my table ... !!! not too bad... although now filled with books ... =)

too late for regrets ... i am flying soon.. haha......

at the airport... just before i go in.... with my farewell gang...

Huaahhh... !! i cannot contain the excitement of school starting tml and the near death experience i have today.... =)

2006-09-07T06:36:00.000-07:00

haha.. yeah like what i said in the title.. school's starting in less than 24 hours from now... meaning i gotta say good bye to all my late nights (not that i am having very frequently, cos my room mate sleeps early) and all my slacking days doing nothing in my bunk ( ! .. i mean room) yeah ... he's a korean .. and i live among men ( and women, mostly) of korean and japanese blood... yeah... at least i wont be thinking of home so much ... ...

yah today i got the green light from my dad to buy a bicycle... yeah.. u know how big is the campus ? man to get from one gate to another.. i need to walk at least 5 to 10 minutes... which i guess is the same for every uni ... the only good thing is that my Uni is shaped more like a square so will not easily lose my way... so immediately after getting my bike.. i went with my fren cycled all the way to tian an men square ... a whoopping 50 minute journey.. so so so.. forget the part i use to say i can walk to tian an men square every morning to prayer walk... its impossible... yah.. and thats where the near death experience occurs once again.... -_-" i was cycling near the road when the bus beside me ... apparently din see me ... just suddenly turn in .. and caused me to turn hard and crashed into the stone pavement.. leaving scratches on my left shin... i was thankful that i turn fast enuff.. other wise... barney would have successfully 'completed' his journey to beijing.. haha.... yeah.. oh man... i am so excited about school... the journey is just about to start ... yippee...
let everything begins.... \=)

heh heh...

2006-09-06T05:56:00.000-07:00

Yippee... my labtop is functioning totally ... can assess almost everything liao... all the hotmails and friendsters... all can... woo hooo..... muhuahuahua.... *jumps around *

heh heh... today finally got my connections up .... =)

2006-09-05T20:31:00.000-07:00

\=( but wat really makes me upset and disappointed is that i still cannot assess alot of the sites... dunno it is my firewall or wat... hotmail ... yahoo... friendster... all cannot assess... only few sites available is blogspot and google... sigh... yeah.. all yu ppl waiting for me on msn.. its gonna be even longer than u think... .. anyone can teach me about the firewall settings ? i believe is that problem.. but then again.. norton also cannot assess leh.. aiyoh.. patience, patience... learning patience.... hee hee.... =)

The first sunday in China...

2006-09-03T06:47:00.000-07:00

sigh... still can't find a church... temptations are building up ... its getting hard... i need to make some resolutions... so rules that i need to stick by ... i need discipline... i gotta discipline myself....sometimes i also dunno what to write in this blog... felt that as if i hav nothing to write... felt empty... pray that this emotions will just go away ... so that i can experience what God has placed me here to do.... ... ... \=)

Hey ppl.. its barney's daily broadcast once again.... =)

2006-09-02T06:13:00.000-07:00

yoz ppl... hows every body doing... reallie miss ya guys by the truck loads.... tomolo is the first sunday i am going to spend in China.... sigh... most likely i gotta stick to the sermons i downloaded online before i came here... oh well... life has been good... or relatively good... ;) today my room mate was out havin tuition .... oh !! did i mentioned before .. he's a korean ... and in my hostel ... my floor of almost 20 plus plus rooms ... almost 80% are japanese and korean......... ....... ..... gals.... ( OMG ! ) sigh... in and out i see them ... everynight i hear them.... sometimes i wonder if i am living in a gals hostel or wat... but of cos... luckily... my room mate is a guy... of cos... hee... =) yeah...

schools starting on monday.. or at least i am registering in on monday... so after that .. i will be quite occupied... and that will do its part in keeping my heart on school work and stuffss.. rather than missing home/church ...

take care guys ... keep in contact... =)

ps : anybody can teach me how to do a tag board in the bloggie ?? i hav been trying to do that for a long time... thanks... till then.. u guys can leave messages in the comments sections.... =)

HeY PeOpLe !!! WeLcOmE tO BaRnEy's NeWs BrOaDCaSt ... LiVe iN ChInA

2006-09-01T06:32:00.000-07:00

Finally after so many days... i finally found the time and the chance to get back to write my blog... ... been here for 5 days liao ...thinking that today is cell group time and its a fellowship time with the english congregation and i am not around ... till now... i realli realli miss home ... miss my family ... miss church... miss YC... and of cos .. not forgetting those people whom i always talk to late into the night ... all ya fella night owls... miss ya dudes...

Ok.. now to the traffic broadcast... few things i've learned here since the past few days i am here...
1. In singapore when u cross a zebra crossing, u can be sure that even if a car comes towards yu... the car will definately stop and let u cross first.... well..... yu see... in beijing here... they wont.... ( !!! ) not even slow down ... and expect u to give way to them ... ( personal experience of a few near death cases .... )

2. when the traffic light shows the little green man for u to walk across street ... the cars will not stop either... and cars will sometime appear out of no where... turning out of the wierdest possible place... u can ever think ... so to cross the street here in beijing... i learned to cross when there is no cars in sight... be it red or green man .... (also thanks to the personal experience of the barney's near death cases...)

Weather broadcast...
1. the weather here is about the same as that of singapore... but much cooler in the morning... going to turn autumn soon...

2. look up in the sky... u can only see clouds... no clear blue sky like that we see in singapore... totally filled with clouds.... oh... how i miss the clear blue sky of singapore....

3. the weather is very dry... and the air pollution here is so much worse than that of singapore... ( detected by the sensitive nose and throat of barney )

In other words... if u dunno what i have been talking abt... just know that i am thankful to be still alive and kicking..... praise God !!!!!!

Thats all for today's broadcast live from beijing.....