been back for a long time le

something i only realised today was a little action developed over the weeks since i am back is tat i have been rubbing my tummy very often.... and tat my 4 kingdoms hav merged into a united nations liao... a confirmation and a result of the potatoing since i am back in singapore...

今天。。

刚刚从小组时间结束后.. 走回学校宿舍取了自行车，准备为了今晚的夜宵而奔波。在来来回回的道路上不知行了多少回，这条路已成为这几周我几乎每晚都会走一趟。为了我喜欢的羊肉串，最近我每晚都会去光顾离我家不远的烤羊肉串店。这一次却与往常不一样，在半路上我看到对面发生了一些状况，好象是发生了一起小车祸，看起来也好象没人受伤，可能只是车受损罢了。但是真正抓住我的注意力的是他们为了可能毫不起眼的事情而大打出手，当中也有一些“多事”的旁观者也参与。其中印象最深刻的是就在我后面处于对面的车道的一个旁观者，竟然不顾危险跑过马路到对面事发地点去KAYPOH.... 让我觉得很好笑，本来可以很快且简单的解决一件事结果因为多出了这么多的“多事人”反而更难和平的解决一件事... 真的是很好气又好笑。

i have seen the goal... the direction was given .. i jus need to walk towards it .. no matter how hard... how long.... however slow i maybe walking.. but at least i am still walking towards it.. thru this entire thing, the lessons that i have learned..i dun want to forget.. its too impt for me to forget and tat Daddy has to teach me again...

its time to get my life reorganised again le..... ....

Ready for bigger things...

i would dare say to come to the stage i am in now isnt easy at all.. though its inevitable, cos there isn't any better way out( there might have been another possible solution though.. but might not have been the best solution) .. so standing where i am now and looking back at the past 3 weeks or so... or more.. i am grateful.. and thankful, cos i know at every step of the way. He was with me.. and He never left me to deal with this alone.. at every step, there are ppl to talk to me, encourage me, give me a hand, or to lend me a shoulder, or a ear perhaps to hear all my grumblings... i really thank u guys for being there for me, some of u who bear the heat of all my grumbles and anger even at times.. it has really been hard on u guys..

its a major lesson in life.. one that i dun regret doing all that i have done.. one tat if given a choice whether to go thru it again i will definately go thru it.. though very much painful.. and lots of emotions and values.. thinkings.. are being shaken.. but thru it i learned alot of life lessons... its all part of a maturity process like wat one of my frens said.. its time to grow up le..

now.. after all's been said and done.. at the end of the day.. the heart of the matter.. now.. is 2 things.. to focus on wat i am here to do(study) .... and to focus on my on spiritual growth..
it doesnt mean being able to say or even write it out down here means i have placed it behind me.. its a constant ongoing battle.. the battle for my heart.. to come alive.. The glory of God is a man fully alive..

not But I.. its But God... =)

had a great time with aunty lilian and aunty licheng.. and thru the course of these few days.. i have seen for myself, they can really really shop sia.... and really thank God for the "training" i have with the NUS batch of students.. that i can shop with them the whole day.. carry their stuff at the end of the day when they are tired.. i still can go on.. muahahahahahahaha.... well still its a tiring but enjoyable thing.. to enjoy their company.. hear from them .. and learn from them... thru the days that they were here.. alot of the things i was going thru came to a closure.. that major thing tat i was going thru.. was dealt with and now i am ready for bigger things ahead.. there are more things ahead tat i should focus on... more impt things.. like wat huaken said.. its a shaking process ... and when everything else have been shaken.. then wat is left is really the impt things in life and wat God wants me to focus on.. =)

at the end of the day.. that God will reign unchallenged in my heart..

my heart is still to bless ... =)

心情渐渐平静下来了。。。　虽然还不是很清楚将来的事情，也不知道接下来要做的事。不过我很清楚的是，祂牵着我的手，祂也掌管明天。没有一件所发生的事，祂不知道的。一切将来的事，已在祂的手中。。。。　我将走一步，算一步，所走的每一步祂都会带领。。。。